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Welcome to Amanda Green’s website

My Alien self my journey back to me Amanda Green e book cover march 2012 My name is Amanda Green (pseudonym), I was born and live in England, UK,  and I set up this website and wrote two memoirs and one self-help book to share with my readers the stories of my issues with mental illness, therapy and recovery. I also write thought provoking, inspiring fiction with the theme of overcoming adversities (abuse, homelessness, mental health, relationships and more)

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I regularly post blogs about coping strategies, inspirational things to do, Borderline Personality disorder, depression, Obsessive compulsive disorder, schizophrenia, anxiety/panic attacks, thyroid issues, eating disorders (Anorexia Nervosa and Bulimia), alcohol and drug abuse, sexual abuse/rape, Quetiapine (Seroquel anti-psychotics) and Citalopram (anti-depressant), therapies such as Cognitive behavioural therapy and paranoia, dissociation and psychosis – all of which I have experienced in one way or another either myself or those I know.  Also info on mental health charities, forums,  campaigns, the stigma surrounding mental illness, some of my personal experiences, celebrities with mental health issues and mental health in the family.

My logo is a locked box and this is because one of the main things I had to do to heal myself was to deal with adverse things that have happened to me in my past and my aim was to put them in a ‘pandoras box’, close the lid on them and lock them away, so that I could forgive and forget the past and concentrate on the future.

Amanda Green pandora box logo

Amanda Green pandora box logo

I realised that holding onto the past was harming me in the present time and it had to stop. Therefore, I decided this would be an apt logo for me to share and be recognised with. Plus green is for ‘go’ (‘go for it’ I thought) and is also my pen name.

You will see the main feature on the ‘My Alien Self : My Journey Back to Me’ book cover is a keyhole in keeping with the locked away bad memories theme…

Read about my book  My Alien Self – My Journey Back To Me by CLICKING HERE. To view or purchase any of my books click on the links to Amazon on the right.  Both memoirs are available as paperback and all are on kindle, but the GREAT news is that you do not need a Kindle reader to read kindle books Find out more by CLICKING HERE

I have also added a sample of my writing – see it by CLICKING HERE  and a small piece from my book about my mum and dad – CLICK HERE 🙂

My personal website is SandraMDean …….Continue reading Welcome to Amanda Green’s website…

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‘It could be worse’ poll, invalidation, and the results!

relationshipsI have just completed my first poll to see how people feel about certain things.

On this occasion, I asked this question:

If you are feeling ‘really’ bad about something in your life that affects YOU negatively’ (physically or emotionally) and someone says ‘It could be worse’ or ‘others suffer more’ does this:

A Help

B Not help?

C something else?

71 people (63 females/8 males) responded through Facebook, Twitter and LinkedIn and here are the results: …….Continue reading ‘It could be worse’ poll, invalidation, and the results!…

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A bit of time off, a holiday, mindfulness, relaxation, getting stuff done – can I inspire you?

Since finally accepting my mum’s downward curve, mentally, and a few other stressful things, I decided to make a new start for myself. I wasn’t sure what, but new anyway.

I haven’t rushed. I decided to have a little holiday, at home. Time off from the usual. No counselling; nothing. And it has been amazing. I have got up when I wanted, without worrying about what I SHOULD be doing. I’ve cleaned my windows, had another clear out, cleaned my fish tank out, watched documentaries, been creative, watched films, and more than anything I have been mindful.

I had to keep pushing away the ‘coulds’ and ‘shoulds’ but on the whole, I have been mindful. I’ve eaten tasty, nutritious things, been looking after myself, thinking about what ‘I’ want to do rather than what anyone else might want me to do. And I have done things in a very relaxed way with no time schedule.

I even got to the swimming pool today. It’s so hot, I thought I could cool off, but it had just been closed due to chlorine issues, so I had a Jacuzzi and steam instead and got even hotter LOL!

Things I have had to do, like sorting more important stuff out, I have done without stress. I have driven more slowly …….Continue reading A bit of time off, a holiday, mindfulness, relaxation, getting stuff done – can I inspire you?…

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The D word ‘Dementia’ (Vascular) and mum

I popped in on mum and dad the other day. Mum, increasingly, thinks it’s a long time since she saw me. That makes me very sad. And, although she has always had lots of mood swings, her moods are changing much more differently now, as we also have a lot of tears in the mix now.

On this occasion, when I knocked at the door, dad said that mum thought it would be me. This is something that has happened on many occasions as we have been very close in intuition, mum and I. She was so glad to be right and was happy to see me, but didn’t look great in herself. When she said she hadn’t seen me for ages yet again, (I see them both regularly every or every other week) dad and I reminded her that I had been to dinner last week with my boy, Titus, she couldn’t remember 🙁 She had such a lovely time with Titus too – he is a great therapy cat!

She then went and sat down amidst a conversation I was having with her and dad, and got in a terrible mood. Her not being able to remember is frustrating to all. Now I am used to this kind of thing all my life, but this was different. Mum now has dementia and although I didn’t want to acknowledge it last year when all the problems occurred around her fall down the stairs (her lithium levels being sky rocketing high so we found out), I guess I have to. Every week I see her, she is up and down, sometimes very lucid and chatty, but mainly going down.

She recovered from terrible injuries. After a lot of awful times when she was in a care home, and battles, she finally …….Continue reading The D word ‘Dementia’ (Vascular) and mum…

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Thanks to mindfulness, today is the first day of the rest of my life September 8th 2016 – my new life

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button-mirror-and-tcup-table-lamp

I’m a huge supporter of mindfulness and living ‘in the moment’ and whilst writing about it again the other day, I knew I needed to get ‘mindful’ in order to work through all that has happened, negatively, in the past few weeks (and more). But, for me, shutting off my brain and concentrating on the ‘now’ was too hard. So, I went for ‘doing something’ instead. Escapism, keeping busy, call it what you like, but I chose TV documentaries, films, reading a book, and a new hobby of covering things with buttons.

After a few days of doing this in my spare time, plus soaking in the bath and writing lots of things down, I am feeling good again!

Writing things down is still my best technique; pros and cons of doing things or not doing things, working through my thoughts and re-reading them after, writing what I really think or feel without sharing it with anyone – just my truths…

I’ve worked through all my emotions, thoughts and feelings over the past few days – quite a rollercoaster – and this morning I feel calm and I am looking forward to a fresh start in life.

A fresh start, a fresh look at events, thoughts, feelings and people, a fresh approach to how I deal with things, a fresh start in what I am going to do with my life.

We get caught up in so many things to do, people to please, our coping personas, rush, rush, that we forget to take that time out and reflect on our lives. Where am I now? How did I get here? Am I happy here? Do I have support? What is my role in life? What is my worth in life? Do I have ‘me time’? What do I want in my future? Am I heading in the right direction?

After a lot of turmoil and tears, I am finally at peace with my mortality (not so much others’ but mine at least) and one thing I do know is that, as every day passes, I still only have that one life, and if it’s not going the way I want it to, the only person that can change it is me. Same for my behaviours, the relationships I want to be in or don’t want to be in anymore, and how I make positive changes in my life.

The last time I did this exercise, one of the things I did was to finish my relationships with two people close to me. We were not suited to be in a relationship with each other anymore, even though they were family, and not only was it like a burden had been lifted, I do not regret it one bit. I felt immediately more free and still do. …….Continue reading Thanks to mindfulness, today is the first day of the rest of my life September 8th 2016 – my new life…

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My weekend of creativity and my own way with mindfulness to stop myself from ‘thinking’ – buttons and art

I have a lampshade with buttons on it in the shape of a heart. It gave me the inspiration to put buttons on other things. I have had a hoard of button from my late Great Aunt, and have just kept them but they are so pretty I wanted to do something with them. I ordered a few more buttons from ebay, so I had a mix of vintage and brand new, went out and got some lamp shades, table lamp, mirror, photo frame and recycled one of my own table lamps and hey presto I spent the weekend on it.

Now, normally I would promote mindfulness in writing or by using our five senses, but this weekend I had a lot to get out of my mind and so I needed to be doing something different. And it worked! For me and for the results!

Check out my before and after photos – I still have superglue stuck to my thumb and forefinger LOL

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My last author book signing of this year is at Sandbach in the beautiful Town Hall Saturday 5th November 2016– are you coming?

Sandbach Author Event 2016

Sandbach Author Event 2016

32 authors will have tables at this event on Saturday 5th November 2016, so you can meet and chat to writers of mixed genre. From Paranormal, to children’s books, self-help to contemporary fiction and more adults reads too! I will have my memoirs, self-help book and ‘Behind Those Eyes’, my gritty fiction tale based in London.

Plus, there will be panels running throughout the day, and author readings and Q & A’s 🙂

I love meeting everyone at these events, and I will have signed books, free pens, mugs, USB sticks, and more plus a whole lot of chat so do come and meet me!

Tickets are only £5 (free for children – under 16’s must be accompanied by an adult) and you are automatically entered into a prize draw on entry to win fantastic prizes!

Tickets can be bought on the Town Hall website CLICK HERE (OPENS IN A NEW WINDOW)

The Book signing website CLICK HERE

The event Facebook page CLICK HERE 

…….Continue reading My last author book signing of this year is at Sandbach in the beautiful Town Hall Saturday 5th November 2016– are you coming?…

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The Manchester Author Event and Gig was a blast – I met authors I’ve known for years for the first time in person!

amanda green table

amanda green table

The Manchester Author Event and Gig happened yesterday and I have woken today feeling very happy about it all. There was a fantastic atmosphere in the huge marquee where 50 of us set up our tables and showcased our books and our personalities, chatting to each other and to readers. I met some amazing authors, including Christoph Fischer (love his book ‘Conditions’), Olga Nunez Miret (read her book ‘Family, Lust and Cameras’ which I really enjoyed), Laura Morgan (whose book ‘When Darkness Falls’ I read and loved), and so many more.

To name a few, Bella Settera (lovely lady), Victoria Howard (real name Jenny Woodall, who is another lovely lady), K L Shandwick (who I met at the Essex event), Elizabeth Morgan, David Lascelles, Gary Edward Gedall and Lavinia Urban.

Creative artist, Annabella Williams was there with her arty stuff made from books pages (very clever), book blogger …….Continue reading The Manchester Author Event and Gig was a blast – I met authors I’ve known for years for the first time in person!…

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Launching my website for my new services as ‘Mental Health Wellness Coach/Counsellor and Life Writing course Co-ordinator in Essex

Amanda Green Sandra DeanLaunching my website for my new services as ‘Mental Health Wellness Coach/Counsellor and Life Writing course Co-ordinator in Essex.

To see the new website (in a new window) CLICK HERE

Although counselling/coaching and life writing workshops will begin in Essex, I plan to offer them all on-line as well in the future so watch this space… 🙂

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I shall be signing at the Manchester Author Event & Gig on Saturday 13th August 2016 – hope you can come too!

Behind Those Eyes front cover 1The Manchester Author Event & Gig 2016 takes place on Saturday 13th August 2016 from Sandra Dean depression - cropped front cover - web (2)11am until 11.30pm. Meet your favourite authors and get books signed during the day, transferring to a BBQ and gig with various bands into the evening!

I have only just got a table for the day and feel very lucky to be going, and hope you can come too if you are in the area! CLICK HERE for the link to my pre-order form.

A mixed genre of authors are attending, and tickets are available for morning slots, afternoon slots or all day tickets that include the evening events. Tickets are available on Eventbrite CLICK HERE TO GO THROUGH TO THE SITE

39 cover June 2013 smallMy Alien Self book cover AlisonFor the Facebook page CLICK HERE  and for the Facebook event page CLICK HERE 

Do let me know if you are coming!

Amazing that I was so nervous about my first one a few weeks ago and now I have already booked my third – this one. Don’t forget I shall be at the Bradford indie author event next Saturday too! For details CLICK HERE

Amanda 🙂 x Check out the lineup below!

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I shall be signing at the UK Indie Literary Festival Bradford, West Yorkshire 23rd July 2016 along with amazing fellow indie authors – self-publishing rocks! It’s a FREE event so come along!

Amanda Green UK Indie Lit Fest 2016

Amanda Green UK Indie Lit Fest 2016

I cannot begin to tell you how lucky I feel to be exhibiting my books at the UK Indie Literary Festival, Bradford on 23rd July! It has been organised over the last year and half but I got my place just a few days ago due to the sad announcement that a fellow author could no longer go.

I have checked out all the other Indie authors going (30 of us), and there really is something for everyone with a huge range of genres, plus readings and workshops and skype appearances and chats with Worldwide authors too!

I am so impressed, I have written a list below of all attending authors and their genres, so you can see why it will be so worth your while to come. And if that wasn’t enough, the event is FREE entry, due to donations from individuals, Cillian Press, who kindly donated, Follow This Publishing, Gillari Books, Mightier Than the Sword UK, Eventispress and The Graphics Shed, as well as key authors attending the event. It was set up by D M Singh, author of YA Gothic and Fantasy and CEO of Follow This Publishing. It is the first event of its kind.

So, here’s the official website for the event – CLICK HERE TO OPEN IN A NEW WINDOW

It is totally FREE but you can register yourself as coming on Eventbrite – CLICK HERE TO OPEN THE LINK IN A NEW WINDOW

Twitter @UKIndieLitFest1

Facebook https://www.facebook.com/ukindielitfest/

IF YOU WISH TO PRE-ORDER FROM ME FOR THIS EVENT, PLEASE CLICK HERE

Attending authors

  1. Claire McBride – Romance/New Adult
  2. Irene Lofthouse – children’s ‘spooky’ stories
  3. S. Woolley – Fantasy & Crime plus Children’s
  4. Jason Pinnington – childrens
  5. JG Clay Horror/Dark Fiction/Science Fiction
  6. Glynn Holloway – historical
  7. D M Singh – gothic, folk, fairy tales, YA
  8. Joe Eastwood – young adult, poetry, fantasy, thriller, and even romance
  9. Joe Kipling – young adult
  10. Laura Morgan – romantic suspense and new adult
  11. Steven A Burgess – Heroic Fantasy and Science Fiction
  12. Rose English – short stories
  13. K S Marsden – Fantasy/adventure
  14. Diana Jackson- historical fiction and crime
  15. Alex Brightsmith – thrillers, fantasy and flash fiction
  16. Alex Mellanby – young adult, adventure/mystery
  17. Michael Wombat – Mixed fiction
  18. Joshua Sutton – science fiction/fantasy
  19. Maria Gibbs – Romance, paranormal, psychological thriller
  20. Rachel Cotterill – fantasy
  21. Felicity Snowden – Occult, horror, mystery, historical
  22. Elizabeth Haley-Woods – fantasy, urban, erotica
  23. Victoria Kinnaird – LGBT YA paranormal romance, LGBT YA contemporary romance
  24. Jessica Rhodes – contemporary fiction
  25. Chris Turnbull – science fiction, fantasy, gothic
  26. Victoria Howard – romantic suspense
  27. Roger Barton – southern history
  28. Steven M Caddy – Sci-fi/YA
  29. Claire Colley – women’s contemporary fiction
  30. Amanda Green – memoirs, mental health, self-help books, short stories, gritty drama

 

Hope to see you there! 🙂

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