I’m a huge supporter of mindfulness and living ‘in the moment’ and whilst writing about it again the other day, I knew I needed to get ‘mindful’ in order to work through all that has happened, negatively, in the past few weeks (and more). But, for me, shutting off my brain and concentrating on the ‘now’ was too hard. So, I went for ‘doing something’ instead. Escapism, keeping busy, call it what you like, but I chose TV documentaries, films, reading a book, and a new hobby of covering things with buttons.
After a few days of doing this in my spare time, plus soaking in the bath and writing lots of things down, I am feeling good again!
Writing things down is still my best technique; pros and cons of doing things or not doing things, working through my thoughts and re-reading them after, writing what I really think or feel without sharing it with anyone – just my truths…
I’ve worked through all my emotions, thoughts and feelings over the past few days – quite a rollercoaster – and this morning I feel calm and I am looking forward to a fresh start in life.
A fresh start, a fresh look at events, thoughts, feelings and people, a fresh approach to how I deal with things, a fresh start in what I am going to do with my life.
We get caught up in so many things to do, people to please, our coping personas, rush, rush, that we forget to take that time out and reflect on our lives. Where am I now? How did I get here? Am I happy here? Do I have support? What is my role in life? What is my worth in life? Do I have ‘me time’? What do I want in my future? Am I heading in the right direction?
After a lot of turmoil and tears, I am finally at peace with my mortality (not so much others’ but mine at least) and one thing I do know is that, as every day passes, I still only have that one life, and if it’s not going the way I want it to, the only person that can change it is me. Same for my behaviours, the relationships I want to be in or don’t want to be in anymore, and how I make positive changes in my life.
The last time I did this exercise, one of the things I did was to finish my relationships with two people close to me. We were not suited to be in a relationship with each other anymore, even though they were family, and not only was it like a burden had been lifted, I do not regret it one bit. I felt immediately more free and still do.
So, here’s a toast to ‘New beginnings, having clear outs, mindfulness, hobbies, ‘me time’ and positive changes, in work and play’ 🙂